THE FUTURE

AS salam,

i'm back after a break...dlm seminggu 2 ni i can't stop thinking of Elham's future...hmmm...working at KL area will alwiz running out of time..stuck n waste ur time in a traffic...but wut to do kan...pg2 kol 6 da kuar sending Elham to babysitter..then stuck in a traffic at jln pasar borong selayang n jln kuching n only can punch the earliest at 8.00 am...that was 2 hours on the road...and go back at 5 pm will only can fetch Elham earliest at 6-6.30 pm..that was 1-2 hours on the road...i missed my baby's face for almost 12 hours everyday...can u imagine wut kind of life that ive been through right now..hmmm...kecian Elham..he is only 3 months old.i can't imagine how's Elham school life nant...with me cannot send and fetch him from school...arrgghhh...what kind of mother am i....who's gonna take care of his bfast n prepare him to school if i have to go to work at 6AM in the morning...how is his lunch and yet when he get back from school still he can't see my face because i will only be home at 6PM....i dont border of tired, exhausted or wut not...i think i can deal with it..i just care about my time with my child...if i quit my job..how is my family income..since im in government sector..i know my future n family economy is safe..though i can't be rich but alhamdulillah i think i can survive living with it...  but im just afraid of my time with family..how can i be  good wife n mother if i only have 8 hours with my family...n other thing is..who is going to take care of my child while im away...i dont trust in maid..and obviously i disagree in polygamy with reason to have a person in relation with us just to take care of my child...that suckkksss....im his mother..i know what it looks like having a stepmom..dont u ever think about it....hahahaha...im cool but hurt....n only women knows how's da feelings of poligami...hmm mls nk pk psl tu..i knew he is only joking about it..but kecian la kat die kalo kene tanggung byk2 dosa kan..if his unfair lgla dosa...n kalo x kene cara poligami ni silap2 boleh mengkacau bilaukan hidup anak2 n kita sendiri...kecian suamiku..please find some other solutionla syg...i dont  want to take the risk ok... i know there is a solution for us..infact  rasenye all parents yang working at kl area also facing the same thingkan...must be a solution...hehe..panjang tol karangan...dulu time sekolah  xplak rajen mcm ni....oklah..to be continue....